The Script Live in Manila Part 3 Album!!

I guess.. It is now safe for me to spread the upcoming concert of The Script here in Manila, Philippines. The 3rd come back of the band in the country will be held on Smart Araneta Colesium on March 31, 2013. It was last November 15 when ticket stores started to sell tickets and as of today, November 21,2012, the available seats left are Upper Box B, General Admission and Patron Regular. It was only 6 days and the preferable and beautiful seats were all taken.

We were aiming for the Lower Box Seats but unfortunately, all of them were already taken. But I am really thankful that we had the tickets now and all we need to do is wait for 4 months until The Script comes here. 

White, Pink and Green

Colours? What's with these colours? Haha Nothing much but these are about everything. :)

White for a Rose.

Pink for a Fish.

Green for a Turtle and Snake.

So what's the deal? Haha. Couldn't tell much. But I swear, these things made my day complete. Not just because somebody gave them to me, but because of that "someone" that gave these to me. Okay. It's a puzzle. If you can't follow - that's your problem. :D

White for a Rose. When you're late, it doesn't always mean that you need to bribe me with a rose. But knowing you, I was really surprised and stunned when I saw you holding that rose. It was really unlikely you - that's why I am so thankful for this white rose. My expression might not showed it but my heart skipped a beat because of what you did.

Pink for a Fish. Okay. Do some magnet. If you are lucky you can hit the biggest prize, if not - have yourself the smallest prize. And this prize is the fish. Choose among the colour that you preferred. And knowing me? I had to choose pink. It was not much of a game but I had to try to test my "luck". Haha

Is it worth it?

What's with the title? ow come on! Upon reading the title, you will realize that i am totally pissed off. Good thing we had a night out and talked about unsaid stuffs. :)

Okay, here we go again. I may sometimes seems to be a freakin' plastic person but, i can be the prank lady in front of you. You know what i hate the most? It is not telling the truth in front of my face. The hell, speak up. If you are against our happiness, deal with it, deal with us. 

I am telling you - I know you can or you would probably read this post. You can't break us apart. Friendship is more important that your stupid emails. Grow up kid - be a man, be a lady. Speak right to our faces.

We may become some insecure but this is not something that we will do. It is a KID'S STUFF for a weak person like you. 

I am sorry but I am totally pissed with a nobody. With a person I don't even know if he/she exists. Haha. 

There. I just spoke up. If I just knew you, I can tell it right into your face. :)

God Bless to whoever you are. And PLEASE: MY BLOG IS A PRIVATE PROPERTY of mine. Whatever is written here - its my prerogative, and I have plenty of friends - they could be the person included in this post. 

So, what's for Christmas?

If i'm not mistaken, there are 43 days left before Christmas. And admit it, we are all excited about receiving presents from our loved ones and from ourselves as well. It's not that we've forgotten that Christmas is the day where our Christ was born, but receiving something from this day except from love became much of a tradition.

Without further adieu, i want to share some presents I would love to have this holiday seasons. I am not asking whoever it is to give me these things, i just want to make a list and somehow, give myself some guide. :)

POSH: Posh is going to be my first cat ever. :) What made me so sure of receiving this gift? Well, let's just say that dreams do come true with prayers. I am not yet sure what Posh will exactly look like, but I am so sure that I will treat this feline friend of mine as one of the best thing I'll ever have. 

Surprises, Love and Reality

It is "ber" month yet I feel like talking about love. Yes L O V E. This is my favorite subject. As always.

When I was younger, I always thought that love could be something so special, something magical. I always thought that it will lead you to infinite happiness. No heartaches, no fights, no dull moments. A relationship bound with honest love, pure love and real love.

But as I grew up, the way I think about love has changed. It is not the same with how I read it my romance books nor understand on a love story. Love is about heartache. It is about sacrifices. It is about being strong for the relationship, for yourself and for your lover. Love can still be special - only when your partner feels the same way. Love can still be magical - let alone with the surprises of gestures and effort. And lastly, love can still lead you to infinite happiness - only when it is reciprocal.

Violation is Violation - Road Accident by a Drunk Driver

Traffic violation. Road Violation. Whatever it is. It is Violation..

As I was playing Tetris on Facebook, the compound where I am living began to panicked when one of my tito went outside when he heard a loud bump. And as expected, it was one of the vehicles parked outside our place that was hit by a tricycle.

We called for some help from Barangay Tanod and called some police as well. The driver of the tricycle was drunk. Knowing my family, my tito, the owner of the car - we will not let this man not to pay of what he needs to pay. He got too many violations that he was asked to choose.

For the Confused Ones

For the Confused Ones

why does it seem that every words were gone

every ways to be inspired were lost?

you tried to be happy,

you tried to be cheerful,

yet nothing seems to be helping you.

why does it seem that you feel so alone

when surrounded with jolly people?

you tried to come along,

laugh till you drop,

share silly jokes with them,

yet deep inside you're an empty shell.

why does it seem that love is not enough

when everybody's showing this to you?

you can't give your trust

but you can give your words

that everything about you is perfectly fine.

you know deep within,

something is missing

something is losing..

you know deep within,

you want something different,

you want more as much as you can give.

you can't fail, you can't give up

simply because you don't want to

any moment, you can feel, you're losing the thread

you're just waiting..

waiting for something new,

waiting for something you've ever wanted.

but what it is?

did you even recognized it?

if not, maybe some will never do.

An advise against myself.

When life gets tough, when changes occur.. who will be your strength? what if your strength is also your weakness? and suddenly, its gone. Who would you turn to?

oh yes, you have your friends, you've got plenty of people, surrounds you as for you to ease the pain. You have them. They'll call you, give you advises you already know but cannot applied to yourself. Easy girl, you know the problem. Deep inside you know what it is.

And yes, that is the toughest of all, this is the hardest. Everybody has gone through it. But why can't you? You keep on fighting against yourself. Do you think that will do fair? Everyone should be the main competitor of their selves. Did you ever know why? For them to become and do good. For them to become more positive in life. People fight against themselves to become better, to increase the faith and  belief that they have for their souls, for their lives. But why can't you? Why does it seem that every time you fight against yourself, you lose? You always get yourself down.

 Listen to me girl, you know who you are, you know the problem, the consequences and the risk.All you need to do is trust yourself. Listen to your heart. Don't be afraid to get hurt, you are beautiful little lady. Be someone that is hard to lose. Be someone worth losing for. 

An advise against myself.

As Habagat Hit the Philippines

A lot of Filipinos had a hard time on how to stand up against the heavy rain fall last August 7, 2012. It caused floods all over the National Capital Region and as well with the provinces near them. But along with this disastrous event, Filipinos seem not to care with what happened and laugh over Habagat to ease their losses. Huge number of houses, properties had been taken away from them. 

But despite of what happened, it is still more fun in the Philippines for the world can see how "Bayanihan" had build up for almost a week. A lot of casualties have been reported and along with that, a lot of help are being offered. That's the Filipinos. We may look happy and smiling our aces with the floods, having fun with the dirty rivers, but hey, we are the strongest ones to face this tragedy.

There were lives taken, people got hurt but in  the spirit of being a Filipino, many rescuers (with families waiting for them) had given their time to save other's lives. We may hate some part of our country, people may hate us like Marin Tan, but nobody can ever do what we can do.

So for every Filipino, keep smiling. God is with us. We made it with Ondoy, we'll sure make it with Hanging Habagat. All we have to do is unite and pray together.

And be proud for being a Filipino. Those jail-men were really amazing. :)

So, here are some photos taken in Pasig City. :)

22 Songs I Considered My Favorites (Once in a While)

Second day of July and still I am listing these 22 things of mine. Asking yourself, "why 22 instead of 10 or 15 or something?", the answer is, because your writer is about to turn 22 years old this 11th of July.

I have done my bucket list on foods, now it's time for the songs. The songs I will be listing here are the songs I don't usually listen, but when I hear them plays on the radio, I will keep on playing them on YouTube, but not to download them. Them after a long while, the cycle will happen again.

First and foremost,  I want to say that these song are not listed in any particular order. Let start this now, let's see if we have the same taste in music.

22 Foods I Usually Crave For

I can't consider myself as a total food lover. I won't even try new foods that doesn't suit my taste. I don't know why, maybe because I was born to be this delicate in choosing the foods I'll eat.

No onions on pizza, no mayonnaise on fries, extremely no veggies, to tomatoes, etchetera, etchetera. However, things eventually changed. I have begun to try new foods, tried to eat some veggies and ate on restaurants I haven't tried before. But for some reasons, the same old taste lingers on my tongue and keeps myself crave for them more. 

As my birth month arrives, I'll start my "22 Whatever List" on the foods that my delicate taste buds desires:

The Best Mid-Year Things in my Life in 2012

Okay. June of 2012 is not yet done. But so what? From January up to this date, many things happened so fast and yet so memorable. Things I never thought that will occur in my life. Let me remind myself of these things again...

January 2012

- I got myself a loving lover, a partner, a best friend, a boyfriend.
- I ended up my career on my previous company.

February 2012

- Damn, we broke up! (the reason? best damned thing that you can think of)
- First Valentines with flowers and special someone.
- I got a new job as an SEO again.

March 2012

- Got to watch the Pyro Olympics at SM Mall of Asia
- I got a Paulo Coelho's book 

April 2012

- Malling with my best friends, done stuffs like singing in videoke and playing games in the arcade.
- We rode and experienced the Extreme (i sorta forget the ride hahaha!)
- I had a small dedicated cake that I've been craving for months!

May 2012

- First Summer escapade with my best friends on a white beach at Laiya Batangas. (Firts boating experience, snorkeling and ew things :) )
- I bought my very first LesBiGay book, written by Julie Anne Peters.

June 2012

- I watched a concert with the band I've always adored. The NKOTBSB concert.
- I saw the Azkal team face to face! :)
- I took a picture of me and Misagh. :)
- Swimming on a 9 Wave pool at San MAteo, Rizal.
- I tasted an Okinawa tea with Nata and 50% sugar at Serenitea.


Anyway, I guess I have forgotten some of the things, but hell, these ones are the most memorable to me. And sorry, I can't write the others. See? Time flies so fast. I had not noticed that June is already on its second week. And with tjis, we must really enjoy every second, minute and hour of our lives. Forget the hindrances. Just be ourselves and keep on smiling, even on our problems.

As of now, I am looking forward for July and the rest of the year. And July is my birth month actually. As a promise to myself, I will do extreme things on this year and I will do the things I've always wanted to do. This is the new me. Enjoying my life to the fullest as long as I can.

It doesn't matter if I live my life penniless, as long a I can live my life better and happier with the people who loves me, understands me accepted me for who I really am. For what I really am. :)

Long Lost Love Part 3

I felt so relieved after that day that Ben and I met up. The next day, me and my boyfriend get to see each other. Gosh, sobra ko syang namiss! Gusto ko syang i-hug sa gitna ng kalsada! Good thing hindi kami PDA.

Me: Hi! I missed you so much! OA ba?

Miane: Oo! Last friday lang kaya tayo nagkita! haha!

Me: Arte mo! Buti nga na miss ka pa eh! Miss mo ko?

Miane: Hindi! Kaya nga ako nandito eh.

Me: Kelan ba ko makakakuha ng matinong sagot sayo?

We were always like that, my new found love, always kidding around. Got some stupid fights yet still manage to create good memories, happy ones and stupid too. :) What a love, right?

Long Lost Love Part 2

I can't still get over after the incident with Ben. It's not that I'm still in love with him, I just remember how I used to be when I was younger. So vulnerable, easy to get hurt and always listen to people's comment about me. But that was before. After almost six years, I have change..

Last October, I saw Ben, now its late April. I was seating on the bench on one of my favorite park. Thinking deep, i haven't noticed them man sitting beside me. He talked, nagulat ako..

Hi! Busy ka ba? Ang lalim naman ng iniisip mo..

I answered back without looking sa lalaking nagsalita, deep inside I know his voice.

Me:  Hindi naman ako busy, marami lang akong naiisip. I am missing this person whom I really love. i just hope we could really stay together despite of the hindrances in our relationship.

 Man: May boyfriend ka na?! Kelan pa?

Hooked on Books

Did I ever mention that I super love reading books? Well, I am a bookworm. :) I've been reading books since I was a little girl. Any type will do especially series books and romance books.

I can't really remember the first book I have ever read, i mean a real book, not what we have in school. Nor I can't remember the first book I first bought to myself. But I do remember myself counting them, listing them along with the author, the publication date and place and the date I started reading certain one.

Special Person in my Heart

Life is never really what we wanted it to be. But God gave us things we need and some precious gifts that we will always keep in our hearts.

God gave me this person whom I fell for. I love her. Yes a girl named Maybelle. We did fun, we had fun. We laughed at our silly jokes, fought over stupid conversations and slept with phone hung on our ears.  We were so different from each other. I am the emotional type with foolishness and she was the not-so-sweet type of person whom I always wanted her to be.

I am happy with her, a feeling I haven't felt for a long time. I feel secure with her, and I feel so special when she holds my hand. Fingers to fingers, so sweet as i remember.

Looking Back for Being This STRONG :)

They say that the very best revenge you can give to those people who have hurt you is being happy despite the fact that you are broken. At first, I thought it was hard, but then I realized one thing. It is indeed the best revenge.

I have been hurt thousand times, yet I am standing still. Why? It's not that I am strong but because I have God and the people who truly loves me by my side. My heart has been broken, many times I can't even remember how many, but still here I am.

I regret those times that I feel so stupid and desperate for some people who doesn't even want to welcome me in their lives. But then, I feel so successful that I did entered in their lives by doing crazy things.

One I can't forget was the memories with Gener, he was very special, though he doesn't like or love me back. I did things to get his attention, did I succeed? No and yes at the same time. For the first time in my life, he was the only man i ever imagined to live my life with. Crazy, right?

Now, almost a year had passed since we had our last conversation. Things with him left me hanging with questions, doubts, confusions, hurts and eye opening truths. Though he treated me bad, or should I say not that well, still I can stand to be mad at him. Its his prerogative not to like me, and i swear he played fair by being nice to me. With him, I learned a lot of things, I imagined loads of things and realized that he was given to me because he has to teach me something.

He never liked me, i knew it and felt it. But he treat me nice. Lesson learned? Accept that not everybody can love you as much as you love them. Accept the fact that someone can't really be a part of your dream life.

He never had return calls or texts when he has his girlfriend and when i am deeply falling for him. Lesson learned? What he did was good. It is always better to avoid things so that I can't be hurt much further and so there would be no conflicts with his relationship.

I never knew his side, but i knew him deep inside.

Hw would never believe how much impact he made to my life, but i am really thankful, that once in my life, i had him. and he became one of the reason why I am much stronger now.

Thanks Gener, wherever you are from now. 

I moved on, though there was no deep connection between us and we've never been. I thank you. I really do. :)

My Experienced with PyroMusical in the Philippines

03.17.2012 /Saturday

It was the last show of PyroMusical competition in the Philippines for this year. Gladly, I was given the chance to witness this spectacular show. It was Italy who last to performed, because, Philippines as the host, doesn't compete (or just what i thought). Again, I felt so proud to be on MOA and capturing the whole event that night. I super love Italy and I felt a sudden rush of proud when they started to light up the sky. It was so beautiful, so magical. I had released every negative vibes I had in my body in an instant.

That is of course I am so into fireworks. I don't know why, but it really has that spark that telling me that everything is gonna be alright. As you can follow my journey, my life is hanging by a thread.

We're DONE and its KILLING a part of me :(

So this is it? I never thought it'll end like this. I was never been a part of LGBT community, but now I am proud to admit to myself that I am one of them.

Remember this post: the only exception: Brielle? It was our story. This may look crazy. It may look like it wasn't me. But the hell I care. I love that person. So what if she's a lesbian.

Its just hard for i don't even try to make things work. I just gave up on us without considering her feelings. *sigh*

People's advice and opinion on this matter is really confusing. This makes me think when I can't even think straight. I thought that to love is to be happy. No other things to consider. As long as you are happy and you are not hurting other people. But in this life, there are some consideration. As a Christian, I can't really admit if this is a sin, i just know that our relationship was never right. 

But think about it, can we really have or do the right thing when it comes to love when everything seems to be right? It feels like fighting against the whole world. And though your friends are everywhere, comforting you like the old times, you can't really feel okay. 

Moving on is not a one night process, it'll take some time. I know that. But no matter what happen, and with this decision of mine of leaving you, please always remember that I am still here to be your friend. I will always love you. Let's just take some time till our wounds be healed. 

Time is Up!

In this fast changing world, what is the biggest change you want to happen in your life? We are now in 2012, modern day with full of different technologies, cafe bars everywhere, gimmick places at the corner and Maria Clara's out of hand. I am a 21 year old lady, turning 22 on July, and no big changes happened to me when it comes to TIME.

Common Signs of Abuse in a Relationship | Personal Growth Guides

Common Signs of Abuse in a Relationship | Personal Growth Guides

I found this very helpful for all couples out there.. Might help you as well. :)

Unrequited Love

Unrequited Love.  A love that requires nothing. Just a hope. Hope for that person to love you back.

How hard could it be when that special someone can't love you back completely. When a doubt seems to be the only thing he/she believes in. 

Unrequited Love. Two words, just two words yet can be the only words to tell what you are, who you and how you became that "ONE".

I'm tired. Living with these words. Trying to be someone, pretending to be strong. I'm tired of being the weakest link. But what else can I do? When every time I think of doing changes in my life, i feel more tired.

Well, i guess this is just another sleepless night, while i will be lying on my bed, hugging tight Garfield and Babz with thoughts circling around my head. I can sense my head telling me to stop worrying, stop doubting. But I can't. Why? No assurance given, lack of trust to invest and more thrilling emotions to experience.

I am hoping for something. Unrequited Love - please be with me. :)