Fool Again :/

i was a fool.. 

then i became a fool again..

how stupid i was.

to believe in all these lies

i thought i was strong

yet you came along

without knowing why

you made me confused

with words i thought was real

now weakness had caught me

though i refused to let it in

tell myself

i must be strong again..

now i know

why believing is hard

why doubt is enough

for me to trust my instinct.

i was wrong

or i was paranoid

i don't know.

guess i must take it slow

think before i go beyond

think before i let you go.

Who's Faking It??

 I've changed, i noticed that

With no reason, without a doubt

I don't know how, I can't tell why

Should i let it win?

Should i let it go?

What else can i do, it's all over my system?

I was so weak, I was in vain

then something came, i became so strong

i learned to hide, i learned to fake

Just to be brave when someone is in pain.

If I Die Young :)

 Since we are celebrating this special day to remember those people whom left us in this world with or without a word, a topic came into my mind. I remember the song "When I Die Young" and i decided to write my own will. Its not that i am expecting death, i just think that this one is a good topic right now..

Life is a Mess: Crab Mentality

 This piece just came into my mind while i  was so disgusted with some events happening right now. I just want to speak it loud so i can let it go away then  let myself free..

Life is a Mess: Crab Mentality

Life is amess

you need to clean it by yourself

full of envious people everywhere

whom you thought was your family.

Cleanin' Out my Grandpa's Nest :)

This is what happens when November 1 is about to come. We visits the cemetery, cleans the place of our beloved someone who passed away and stays before November 2 arrives.

As for me, every year i always visit the place of my grandfather. I love him this much, that's why even in cleaning his place, i did it without thinking how tiring it would be. My grandparents have six children, 13 grandchildren. But knowing this family is going through some moments. Moments, events i can't explain.

Anyway, yesterday, me, my brother and sister along with my grandam went to the cemetery for an early cleaning. The place was so filthy with dust and dead leaves everywhere. I started cleaning the upper part which is the celing and my brother cleaned the side part of me.

See? We were so busy, we didn't even noticed that my younger sister is taking up some photos of us while cleaning. Can you believe a petite young lady like me can do this job for almost five hours? Tiring isn't it? im STROOOOONG!! :))

Before 25??

            Today, i attended a 75th birthday celebration of our neighborhood. I barely know the visitors for almost all of them were senior citizens. But while i was watching them taking photos, dancing with the birthday celebrant and sending her their love and appreciation, one thing came into my mind. Will me and my friends stay this close when i am 75 years old? Will my friends on high school be there on my 80th birthday? Or will my friends at present time still be there to tell me how much the appreciates my whole being when i am 85? Funny as i i let mys mind wander on a future that is so close into decades. But happy when i realized that maybe, just maybe, some of them will still be there.

Long lost love?

Five long years. Five long years of not seeing him. I am still single and already 27 years old. I had suitors, but i just can't pick.

Matindi ang sikat ng araw. In October! Can you believe that? Ang panahon nga naman sa Pinas, napakagulo. Parang mga pusong ligaw, ang gulo-gulo. I was on my way papunta sa mall, galing akong work kaya naglalakad lang ako. Malapit lang naman kasi ang Ortigas sa SM Megamall eh.

Haba ng pila sa entrance. Ay! Mega sale nga pala kasi at payday pa. Buti pa sila! Taliwas kasi ang sahod namin sa mga sale's day. Pero may kaperahan pa naman ako kaya keri pa rin. I hate shopping alone. And worst, eating alone. Para kong loner talga na kakababa lang ng bundok. At least maganda ang outfit ko this day.