The Best Mid-Year Things in my Life in 2012

Okay. June of 2012 is not yet done. But so what? From January up to this date, many things happened so fast and yet so memorable. Things I never thought that will occur in my life. Let me remind myself of these things again...

January 2012

- I got myself a loving lover, a partner, a best friend, a boyfriend.
- I ended up my career on my previous company.

February 2012

- Damn, we broke up! (the reason? best damned thing that you can think of)
- First Valentines with flowers and special someone.
- I got a new job as an SEO again.

March 2012

- Got to watch the Pyro Olympics at SM Mall of Asia
- I got a Paulo Coelho's book 

April 2012

- Malling with my best friends, done stuffs like singing in videoke and playing games in the arcade.
- We rode and experienced the Extreme (i sorta forget the ride hahaha!)
- I had a small dedicated cake that I've been craving for months!

May 2012

- First Summer escapade with my best friends on a white beach at Laiya Batangas. (Firts boating experience, snorkeling and ew things :) )
- I bought my very first LesBiGay book, written by Julie Anne Peters.

June 2012

- I watched a concert with the band I've always adored. The NKOTBSB concert.
- I saw the Azkal team face to face! :)
- I took a picture of me and Misagh. :)
- Swimming on a 9 Wave pool at San MAteo, Rizal.
- I tasted an Okinawa tea with Nata and 50% sugar at Serenitea.


Anyway, I guess I have forgotten some of the things, but hell, these ones are the most memorable to me. And sorry, I can't write the others. See? Time flies so fast. I had not noticed that June is already on its second week. And with tjis, we must really enjoy every second, minute and hour of our lives. Forget the hindrances. Just be ourselves and keep on smiling, even on our problems.

As of now, I am looking forward for July and the rest of the year. And July is my birth month actually. As a promise to myself, I will do extreme things on this year and I will do the things I've always wanted to do. This is the new me. Enjoying my life to the fullest as long as I can.

It doesn't matter if I live my life penniless, as long a I can live my life better and happier with the people who loves me, understands me accepted me for who I really am. For what I really am. :)

Long Lost Love Part 3

I felt so relieved after that day that Ben and I met up. The next day, me and my boyfriend get to see each other. Gosh, sobra ko syang namiss! Gusto ko syang i-hug sa gitna ng kalsada! Good thing hindi kami PDA.

Me: Hi! I missed you so much! OA ba?

Miane: Oo! Last friday lang kaya tayo nagkita! haha!

Me: Arte mo! Buti nga na miss ka pa eh! Miss mo ko?

Miane: Hindi! Kaya nga ako nandito eh.

Me: Kelan ba ko makakakuha ng matinong sagot sayo?

We were always like that, my new found love, always kidding around. Got some stupid fights yet still manage to create good memories, happy ones and stupid too. :) What a love, right?

Long Lost Love Part 2

I can't still get over after the incident with Ben. It's not that I'm still in love with him, I just remember how I used to be when I was younger. So vulnerable, easy to get hurt and always listen to people's comment about me. But that was before. After almost six years, I have change..

Last October, I saw Ben, now its late April. I was seating on the bench on one of my favorite park. Thinking deep, i haven't noticed them man sitting beside me. He talked, nagulat ako..

Hi! Busy ka ba? Ang lalim naman ng iniisip mo..

I answered back without looking sa lalaking nagsalita, deep inside I know his voice.

Me:  Hindi naman ako busy, marami lang akong naiisip. I am missing this person whom I really love. i just hope we could really stay together despite of the hindrances in our relationship.

 Man: May boyfriend ka na?! Kelan pa?

Hooked on Books

Did I ever mention that I super love reading books? Well, I am a bookworm. :) I've been reading books since I was a little girl. Any type will do especially series books and romance books.

I can't really remember the first book I have ever read, i mean a real book, not what we have in school. Nor I can't remember the first book I first bought to myself. But I do remember myself counting them, listing them along with the author, the publication date and place and the date I started reading certain one.

Special Person in my Heart

Life is never really what we wanted it to be. But God gave us things we need and some precious gifts that we will always keep in our hearts.

God gave me this person whom I fell for. I love her. Yes a girl named Maybelle. We did fun, we had fun. We laughed at our silly jokes, fought over stupid conversations and slept with phone hung on our ears.  We were so different from each other. I am the emotional type with foolishness and she was the not-so-sweet type of person whom I always wanted her to be.

I am happy with her, a feeling I haven't felt for a long time. I feel secure with her, and I feel so special when she holds my hand. Fingers to fingers, so sweet as i remember.

Looking Back for Being This STRONG :)

They say that the very best revenge you can give to those people who have hurt you is being happy despite the fact that you are broken. At first, I thought it was hard, but then I realized one thing. It is indeed the best revenge.

I have been hurt thousand times, yet I am standing still. Why? It's not that I am strong but because I have God and the people who truly loves me by my side. My heart has been broken, many times I can't even remember how many, but still here I am.

I regret those times that I feel so stupid and desperate for some people who doesn't even want to welcome me in their lives. But then, I feel so successful that I did entered in their lives by doing crazy things.

One I can't forget was the memories with Gener, he was very special, though he doesn't like or love me back. I did things to get his attention, did I succeed? No and yes at the same time. For the first time in my life, he was the only man i ever imagined to live my life with. Crazy, right?

Now, almost a year had passed since we had our last conversation. Things with him left me hanging with questions, doubts, confusions, hurts and eye opening truths. Though he treated me bad, or should I say not that well, still I can stand to be mad at him. Its his prerogative not to like me, and i swear he played fair by being nice to me. With him, I learned a lot of things, I imagined loads of things and realized that he was given to me because he has to teach me something.

He never liked me, i knew it and felt it. But he treat me nice. Lesson learned? Accept that not everybody can love you as much as you love them. Accept the fact that someone can't really be a part of your dream life.

He never had return calls or texts when he has his girlfriend and when i am deeply falling for him. Lesson learned? What he did was good. It is always better to avoid things so that I can't be hurt much further and so there would be no conflicts with his relationship.

I never knew his side, but i knew him deep inside.

Hw would never believe how much impact he made to my life, but i am really thankful, that once in my life, i had him. and he became one of the reason why I am much stronger now.

Thanks Gener, wherever you are from now. 

I moved on, though there was no deep connection between us and we've never been. I thank you. I really do. :)

My Experienced with PyroMusical in the Philippines

03.17.2012 /Saturday

It was the last show of PyroMusical competition in the Philippines for this year. Gladly, I was given the chance to witness this spectacular show. It was Italy who last to performed, because, Philippines as the host, doesn't compete (or just what i thought). Again, I felt so proud to be on MOA and capturing the whole event that night. I super love Italy and I felt a sudden rush of proud when they started to light up the sky. It was so beautiful, so magical. I had released every negative vibes I had in my body in an instant.

That is of course I am so into fireworks. I don't know why, but it really has that spark that telling me that everything is gonna be alright. As you can follow my journey, my life is hanging by a thread.