Another Rejection, Oh Well!

“Your request has been rejected”.

Of course, there's no report for that. I found out by myself. My request to follow has been rejected. I saw that coming but I refused the idea of being rejected. I hoped high to being approved rather than being rejected. But that's fine. After all, this is not the first time. So it didn't hurt that much.

Oh well, I have been rejected many times. But what I have realized on those countless rejections was, in every single rejection, multiple acceptance by worth it people came rushing to me. So what's the sense of being sad? Why on earth should I care for those people who can't like me back. Always remember that we can never please everybody. Never!

So tonight, as I think of the last person who've just rejected a “connection request” from me, all I can say is: IT'S OKAY. Thank you for not giving me a chance to show myself a little more. I won't be angry, I won't take this badly. I know you have your reason. And yes, I have been rejected by you, but I am still happy because you're not mad at me. And that's one of the few things I need to know. :)

Tomorrow, the next day, on next month.. I'll be like: Heads up. Chin up. Walk straight. WHO YOU ka sakin! Wala kang Chatime! :P (Kidding)

Saturday Dilemma? Not AT All!

Today is Saturday. After having myself busy at Cubao to meet a friend, have some breakfast and drink some cheap lemon tea, here I am in the office, again. I love the ambiance here in the office especially when I can do anything because less people are here today. Wondering of what to do next before I meet another set of friends to do food tripping somewhere (can’t tell where), I decided to put my thoughts on notes.

It’s pretty amazing to look on my desktop’s background. I have his handsome face as my wallpaper. It really gives me the inspiration I've been longing to feel. By seeing his face, I want to strive more, harder, just to make sure he’ll notice me. Erase that, he already notice me, what I want is to get close to him, even as a friend.

So, here I am, typing while my eyes are all locked to see his face, mind blowing with crazy thoughts and ears that listens to a voice that used to irritates me.

I have a lot of things to write. I have a lot of things to share. God never fails to bless me with positivity and good days. He put me to a situation where I pushed myself to the limit of becoming better. I've learned the true meaning of sacrifice, love, friendship and being me. Now, my life is better than yesterday.

And if ever I finally decided to leave, I won’t worry because I have a great back-up. I have God, which I know will never let me down. And my friends will always be there for me. But if I decided to stay a little longer, few months or a year, I guess it’s my choice to get stranded on a place where I can see a part of my dream. In a daily basis. 

I Wish I was a Daddy’s Girl

23 years and I haven’t met my father. I do know his name, his province and a little something about his life. I never get tired of thinking that someday, one day, I will be able to meet him.

23 years and I am wondering. Does this man ever wonder where I am? What I have become? Or if I am still alive? Because that’s how I care about him. I am thinking about him, what he really looks like or if he even is still alive.

23 years and I’m chasing this man that I shouldn't be chasing at all. He should be the one to chase me. He should be the one to find me. He should be the one to reconcile.

 I never had anger inside my heart. I can never be mad at him. I am not aware of the real story. I have no idea what happened. Why he left me. Why he is not here with me. All I know is somewhere out there, I do have a father.

I wish I have him. Here. With Me. I wish I was a Daddy’s Girl. I wish I have a dad whom will guide me and teach me about guys. I want a father-daughter relationship like how I watched them in the movies. I want a father who’ll drive me to school, to work, to my friends’ house just to make sure that I am okay. I want a father who’ll stay beside me specially on my darkest hour. And above all, I want my own Father.

June is the time when we celebrate Father’s Day. 23 years and I never cared about this “special day”. Why should I? But this year, I decided to finally write something about this day.

So, for my father, I want to greet you a Happy Father’s Day. I hope you are well. And someday, when I am ready enough, I will be the one to come after you. 

Aren't They So Hot?

How can a lady tell who's hot and who's not? For me, a guy can be so hot by having a body which seems so perfect (six-packs of abs, why not?), a cheeks with deep dimples, eyes that can melt even your soul and a smile that could bring you to a place that you've always dream of.

Aside from these physical looks, guys can be so HOT in our eyes by being successful on his career, knowing that this man has a dream and he's living to pursue them. Manners do matters as well – kind, caring, honest and one-woman-man are the qualities of a true hot guy.

With so much deliberation with my self, I have here a list of 5 of the hottest men in the world, FOR ME.

To be honest, ranking these five guys is one of the hardest things I have done in my life. :)

5^th - Joseph Gordon-Levitt
I watched several movies where Joseph Gordon-Levitt is the main actor but I have only noticed his hotness on the film – Don Jon. Yes, that film defines Joseph Gordon-Levitt as a hot, sexy man with a good heart. At a very young age, he appeared on several movies and TV shows. And now that he's 33 years old, he has grown to be a successful screenwriter, actor, director, producer and the owner of hitREcord.

Clothes on, clothes off, Joseph Gordon-Levitt will always look hot! Whether he put that cute smile on his face or he shows a seducing look. This man is truly a good catch.

        

4^Th - Tyler Blackburn Tyler starred on Pretty Little Liars as Caleb – an American TV show with Ashley Benson as her love team. This actor-singer looks definitely hot with his long sexy hair and pair of eyes that could melt you when he stare. The success of PLL also takes Tyler to another TV Series or a spin-off which is Ravenswood.

This year (2014), Tyler had his hair cut which made him look hotter than before.

        

3^Rd - Neymar Jr. Because today is the opening of FIFA and there are 32 countries to defeat against each other, I might as well pick one players from them. Among Ronaldo (Portugal), I find Neymar Jr. as the hottest player on this year. This 22 year old footballer plays for Brasil as forward and winger and also plays for Barca in La Liga.

I have this man in my mind since morning. He is my inspiration for this post. Neymar looks hot when he's shirtless and his tattoos are visible. Young yet successful on his career. Many years from now, I hope that he'll become like Ronaldo or Beckham.

2^Nd - Misagh Bahadoran Second on my list is a Filipino-Iranian Azkals footballer - Misagh Bahadoran. He plays forward on Global FC and winger on Philippine National Team. I started to like Misagh when I first saw him plays in Azkal. Number 09.

Misagh is 27 years old and graduated with Dentistry degree at CEU. Among this list, I've already met Misagh and he is such a nice guy. Handsome, hot body, one of the best soccer player and an educated man. Who else could be the hottest. And mind his eyes, you might kill yourself by staring.

          

1^St - Naive Lord I guess you haven't heard this name, well neither did I. But this man is on my top list. He has no great body like these guys on my list, nor the popularity points but he is the hottest because of his smile.

Every time Naive Lord smiles, he automatically leaves a smile on my face as well. When he smile, his eyes smiles as well. He can brighten up my days, the room, the gloomiest scene every time he give his smile. And he is a good, loyal, one-woman-man. The best description of a hot guy.

There, so have I mentioned any of the guys that you adore? And oh, Aren't They So Hot?

He's Everything You Want, But Does He Want You?

And here we go again. You found him. The man of your dreams. The one you've been praying to God to come in your life. But, who is he looking at? Why is he kissing that girl's lips instead of your? What was that on his finger? Oh and once again, he can't be yours. He can never be yours. 

And I quote, “We fall in love with people we can't have”. Well this is true. You think you finally found him. He's everything you want. He's nice, kind, handsome, a joker, fun to be with, sweet, mature... everything. He's just everything. And you means nothing to him.

Remember the first time you saw him? You noticed him and ignored him at the same time. On your mind, he's just a nobody. But as the time passes by, you realized that he means something. He becomes the reason why you're so excited about your brand new day. And, until that day that you finally knew in your heart, he's everything that you've always wanted.

But does he want you? Does he even know you? Or look at you when you cross his way? You can never tell. But you have your moves. You asked about him – his name, relationship status, his likes, whatever that could help you to get close to him. You find ways to introduce yourself to him with a little help from your friends.

And now he gets to notice you. Small talks. Small conversations. Simple hellos and a call to your name. It was something that can always makes you smile.

And you know what's best? It is that curve in his face that always makes your world turns upside down – his smile. Even if this is for you or for others, his smile can erase all the burdens you have in your heart. His smile became your heartache's cure. He became an angel that helped you to find your way back to happiness.

But, is he aware about this? Does he even know? Well who cares? As long as he can make you happy and you're still on the right track. Nothing really matters but his smile. And you know for yourself that you will not do anything that is beyond your limit or his limitation.

So, there he goes, the man of your dreams. He's everything you want, but does he like you? No, he don't like you but liking him is enough. And this is going to be an open secret.

 

Break-Up Depression as I Know It

I never thought that break-up would be this hard. On this day, 4^th of May is the third month when that special someone broke up with me and left me due to reasons that I wouldn't want the whole world to know. All I know is, I made mistakes that even this so-called love couldn't be forgiven.

I was a jealous woman, well who wouldn't be? This is a part of every human being called “woman”. Even the most beautiful or successful woman in the world has their own insecurities. I've been fighting for that, afraid that I might lost that someone special – well in the end you know what happened.

How?

How can you even undo the mistakes? How can you ever fix what's broken. Provided with time, provided with space. Now that you have to finally let go of everything. How will I move on? How will I continue with my life when all I ever think of is spending every minute of it with you? How will I stand up? How will I?

You've been very angry with me. I regret everything. You were the best thing I ever had. The best thing God has ever given to me. And yet I have pushed you away, so faraway that I cannot even reach you.. again. It hurts a lot. When all I ever wanted was to make you happy and yet all I ever did was hurt you.

How will I ever take those pains? How will I ever take away those anger? How will I leave you? How can I say goodbye? Maybe.. just maybe its not time or space.. What I must really do is pick up all the pieces and learn on what I have made. Learn from my mistake.. And give you what you want - and that is for me to leave - forever.

I love you. I will always will. But I'm not good enough for you now. If ever you needed me, I will still be here. And this ring will never be removed from my finger. You will always be loved.

The Perfect Lie by Zephyr

The Perfect Lie

Ups and Downs

With you i have learned

In this changing phase

Of seeking the real me

No doubt of being two

No chance of thinking twice

The world has lead me

To the path that awaken me

With shimmering glow

Of lips that tell lies

With a glamorous dress

Of a body that shines

This naive soul of mine

Had died and became numb.

Pretension became a habit 

Hiding became the strength

And being okay as the perfect lie. 

Pahabol sa 2014 - Bucket List

Late na ba para sa aking makabuluhang 2014 bucket list? Hindi pa naman siguro dahil January pa rin naman, diba? Hmmm ito lang naman kasi yan, noong nakaraang taon (2013), wala man akong bulgarag bucket list, may mga bagay naman akong na-achieved na naayon sa aking plano. Kaya ngayong 2014, maglilista ako ng mga bagay na gusto kong i-prioritize sa taon ng mga kabayo.

Well, sa ngayon ito muna ang maililista ko:

1. "In every past, one true friend awaits".. Nung binalikan ko ang mga photos ko nung 2013, napansin ko na karamihan sa mga taong kasama ko ay yun at yun pa ren. Hindi ako nagsasawa sa kanila, at ayoko silang mawala sa mga susunod kong photos sa susunod pang maraming taon. Pero ngayong 2014, sana at susubukan kong mag reach out sa mga taong naging kaibigan / close friends ko noong kabataan ko. Dahil ngayon, ramdam kong miss ko na talaga sila. Especially yung mga high school friends ko. Kaya sa mga kasama ko ng taong 2013, dagdagan natin ang mga mukha sa mga litratong mapo-proseso natin. :)

2. "Fly away on my Zephyr"... Isa lang ito - ang makarating ako sa mga lugar na eroplano ang sinakyan. Labas man o loob ng bansa, siguro ito na ang taon para ang isang taong ipinaganak sa taon ng mga kabayo ay makalipad. Pero pasok pa rin dito ang makagala, sa mga lugar na hindi ko napuntahan noong 2013. Dagdag sa aking makasaysayang buhay ang isang malupit na adventure!

3. "Love on Top".. Sa simpleng salita ay mamundok. Hindi ko planong akyatin ang pinaka mataas ng bundok sa Pinas. Aminado ako na hindi ko kaya yun. Pero sana bago matapos ang 2014, makarating man lang ako sa tuktok ng Mt. Batulaw o hindi naman kaya ay sa Pico de Loro. Kaya sayo, aking mahal, samahan mo ko! :D

4. "Feed 'em all with coins".. Desidido ako dito. Sa pagtatapos ng 2014. mapupuno ko ang dalawa kong alikansya sa opisina. Coins, papers, lahat yan isusuksok ko sa aking alikansya. At dapat sa bawat sentimong kikitain ko, may mailalaan ako sa para sa bangko. Dapat matupad ko ito. Sa lahat lahat.. importante ito.

5. "Some past needs to be on your present life".. Ano na naman ito? Well, sa kabuuan ng aking nakaraan, isa ang pinaka gusto kong balikan. Pinaka mababaw, pero mahalaga sa akin. Ito ang pagiging payat. Mahirap sya. Ang sarap kayang kumain! Pero dapat kayanin ko! Kung hindi naman ako maging payat, magawa ko man lang sanang flat yung tyan at puson ko. Ahaha. 

O ayan. Nakapagsulat na ako. Suportahan niyo lang ako, kapit lang, magagawa ko to. Sabi nga nila, isa-isa lang at hindi pwedeng lahat at sabay sabay kong magagawa. Kaya ito muna, first things first. 

Ikaw, kayo, anong gagawin niyo sa taong 2014? Ibahagi na!

What is Life?

what is life where lived by yourself

chosen your own companions

in a box called home?

one is a cat, the other half is yours

to keep as lover and friend as well.

what is life where hit by sadness

when all you want 

is happiness to keep?

go far away then return back home

back in a place 

a place you want to leave.

what is life where the decision is yours

either bad or good

there's nothing to regret?

I hope I can live

In a life I have dreamed for

where reality lies

in this world full of misfortune.

The Launching of "Kain pa LinkBuilder na Matakaw!"

Does it seem that I have forgotten to post news stuffs on my blog? Of course not, yours truly is kinda busy doing some good things.

Here to follow is the launch of my newest blog, entitled: Kain pa LinkBuilder na Matakaw. This is going to be different but will talk about foods and drinks experience that I am gpoing through. 

If you are a food enthusiast or simply a food lover, come on and support the journey of our friend, ang Linkbuilder na Matakaw. 

Here's the snapshot:

My newest blog: http://kainpalinkbuildernamatakaw.blogspot.com.au/

Note: Don't worry about the posts, it'll be written in Filipino but in time, I'll translate them in English. 

Also, take time to visit her at http://about.me/anglinkbuildernamatakaw. 

Thanks for the suport!

when love is...

Just created this.. I meant every word...

What are these words?

Upon browsing Pinterest, my newest online addiction, I came through these three "new" words. Words that I never thought really do exist, words that in latter time will be used by me.

 ONE

Orphic

TWO

Han-gry

THREE

Mamihlapinatapai

Out these three words, I was amazed on the last one. Based on what I have read, it was one of the hardest term to translate. Well, who wouldn't think of that? I don't even have the idea on how to properly use it in a sentence :P

Always,

Living Things World Tour: Linkin Park Live in Manila 2013

The long wait is over! I waited when Scala Events announced that a Grammy Award Winning band will be having a concert here in Manila. It was then said that on May 8, at 8pm, they will be announcing this band. I waited till that day and hoping that this band would be the band of my dream. Who else? LINKIN PARK!

Living Things World Tour: Linkin Park Live in Manila 2013

When 23 Becomes An Age and Not Just A Number

31 days and I will reach the age of 23!! What's so exciting with birthdays anyway?? Well, if you ask me, I am excited for my yearly special day because of surprises and because it serves as the reunion of my closest friends. Also, it is the honoring of having been blessed of another year of my life.

23 years, living on earth. What have i learned? What changes have I made? What else do I want? What advise can I give to the youth? (Uhmm, I don't want to think about that anyway) Haha! 

Lets see. Whether you are interested or not, just keep reading my post :)

When a New Alter Shows Up

Time will come that all you wanna do is shut your mouth and talk about nothing but listens to every word you'll hear around you. It's a feeling when you just want to keep yourself away from any mistake of wrong reactions and suggestions and beliefs. It's a feeling that you're not aware of but keep on occurring.

Today, I have no idea with myself taking a little low of being "makulit" and "kenkay". Another part of me is showing again. A part of Zephyr that I always knew was here but once in a blue moon to show up. I feel like I am Amapola (a fictional character from a book written by Ricky Lee). I have a new ALTER!!! And I don't know if this is okay. 

Maybe all I need is this blog. To write a little about how I am feelin' and everything will be okay again. There is no certain explanation of what I am having on my mind right now. All I know is that something is missing, something wants to space out, something wants to explode. I don't know what that is. I don't even want to think about it. All I need to do now is to WORK and get my JOB done. As in done. 

So, I hope that with this post, I will be able to think straight now. 

The Burot Beach Experience - An Escape to Calatagan

Summer is about to end, or should I say “has ended” as rainy days are coming fast here in the Philippines. But, I guess, it’s not that end to post something about my summer getaway.

My bestfriends and I are looking for an affordable out of town trip so most of us could come. Sad to say that our La Union plan has been cancelled, so we decided to look for a Puerto Galera trip - but it seems like a fortune to some of us. After that, about two weeks before our preferred dates, we searched for a cheap beach in Batangas. There were plenty of them and because it is still summer, some were full with reservations.

Upon searching the web, something caught my attention. A place called "Burot" located in Calatagan. Pictures across the internet show how beautiful that place is and how similar it is on some island in Zambales.

More for Paramore

I was never into Paramore before, the only song I knew about them was "That's What You Get". A great hit for me when I was on college actually.

But as time goes by, Paramore became one of the best bands I knew. When I heard "My Heart", I play the song over and over again. The lyrics was so cool. The way they record it was superb.

Back on 2010, when some fans were waiting for the first ever Paramore concert in the Philippines, I may be busy wandering across our University. I was not really looking for it nor heard of it as a big news. But as the buzz of the 2013 concert of the band in the country again, I had myself the chance to watch.

Looking forward on February 15, 2013, I will be at the SM Mall of Asia Arena to watch and sing along with  Paramore. I am not expecting much but a night of fun, loud and one of the best concert that I will be attending to.

For those who will attend, speak up and take a ride with me. :)